We have a silly little magnet on our refrigerator that looks like this one. You can move that little box that says "Today I Feel" around to the appropriate emotion, like happy, lovestruck, hysterical, etc. Well, ever since we started TTC, the magnet has reflected our emotions surrounding the journey, for example, every time AF comes to visit after a failed cycle, I move it to "sad" for a few days. If we have to sit out a cycle, it gets moved to "frustrated". Here is where the battle starts. When we get going on a new cycle, I always move it to the "hopeful" face, because no matter what I have been through, there is always hope, otherwise I wouldn't continue to try. It usually only stays here for a few days until Brad, the eternal optimist, moves it to "confident". Well, I've never been confident that a cycle will be successful, so I move it back to "hopeful" and back and forth we go all cycle. What's funny is that I don't think we've actually ever had a conversation about this so called battle. I've been thinking about this alot lately and am really going to try to maintain a positive attitude during this IVF cycle, so I ask, is "hopeful" not good enough? Maybe not. I think I'm going to go move it to "confident" right now.
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